Today is my 8th Wedding Anniversary, and in HONOR of my Prince, I decided to dedicate this blog to HIM... I love you Edward Jeremiah Lockwood, Jr.
Words can not adequately describe the love I have for you today. When I look back on the last 8 years that God has given us, I am amazed at everything that we have went through, where we are today, and what we HAVE today.
I will always remember April 27, 2000 when our emails crossed in cyberspace, and I opened up and read your email and said these words, "I am going to marry this man!" The peace that was IMMEDIATE from the Lord was amazing. I'm from a country town, and not many people understood how I could "trust" that you were who you said you were, but when we started talking on the phone for hours and hours at a time, I fell madly in love with your heart. See, our relationship was different in that there wasn't ANY physical connection between us. You were in Texas and I was in North Carolina...the long distance kept us from that...but through our conversations, I came to know the man God had made for ME! All growing up I had prayed and prayed for "THE ONE" that God made for me....and to think after all these years, GOD saved the BEST for last! My precious High School cheerleading coach, Rose, engrained a phrase in our minds always..."God gives the BEST, to those who leave the CHOICE with Him" And baby....you are the best! When I met you, I couldn't believe that you were MINE!
Did God really know that much about me to make a perfect man for ME! A man who loves me unconditionally no matter how much I don't love myself. A man who cries with me when we lose our 2nd baby by miscarriage. A man who holds me and gives me strength that I am sure HE didn't even know he had. A man who understands when I need to grieve on my own and when I need to be held. A man who loves God with all his heart, all his soul, and all his mind. A man who moved his family to a new state to pursue a passion that God placed in his heart. A man who listens when God says, "Go Now!" A man who has such FAITH that God is going to provide our EVERY need and carries his family to the cross. A man who is my protector and defender. I am NEVER afraid when I am with you...cause NO-ONE is gonnna mess with you :) A man who is an amazing father to our boys. A man who has a passion for the lost and for missions. A man who understands EVERY quirk I have. A man who thinks I am God's most BEAUTIFUL creation, even when I can't stand to look at a mirror. A man who cares more about me and my needs more than he cares about himself. A man who is my very best friend!
I could go on and on and on, but I will close with this...Ed, I can NOT wait to see what God has in store for us this year! We have had a long, hard road these past 5 months, but GOD has made us stronger because of it. Keep purusing that passion in your heart for HIM! I love you baby!
Always and Forever,