Saturday, June 28, 2008

Hair Cut Day

It was hair cuts for everyone in the Lockwood family today. Everyone got a nice trim, but Silas had his VERY first haircut. Our hairstylist, Jamay, has been cutting our hair for the past 7 years, so it was exciting to see her cut Silas' hair now too.

Silas started out great! He didn't cry or fuss, but when he started putting his hands up towards the scissors and Ed had to hold his hands down, that's when things got a little crazy.

He didn't like her cutting by his ear. He didn't like his head being held down so she could get the back. Many tears were shed, and we even had to take a break to switch parents and let him calm down a bit. But after he calmed down, and mommy held his hands and let him stand up on her lap, Jamay was able to finish.
He looks like such a little boy now. Gone is the look of "baby"...I can't believe how big he is now.

Daddy started out holding far so good.

Looking cute....

No, not behind the ears me...


Wednesday, June 25, 2008

My Children

I am so blessed by God to have my precious children in my life - Timmy and Silas are TRULY gifts from God. Lately, I have been making a more conscious effort to love on my children unconditionally, and putting them before anything I have on my to do list, etc.

For the past month or so, I have been reading a blog entitled "Bring the Rain" I came upon this blog because of 2 UMHB students who had gotten married and found out that their baby boy would not live very long once he was born. Through Brandon and Sarah's blog, I came to learn about Audrey Caroline. Audrey Caroline was the baby girl of Angie & Todd Smith (Todd is the lead singer of Selah). Angie lost Audrey the same way Sarah lost Elliott. Through Sarah and Angie emailing back and forth, Angie became a major component in Sarah's healing from the death of her son. So, I started at the beginning of Angie's blog and caught up to where I read it on a regular basis. I HIGHLY recommend anyone to take the time to read about this precious family's story. Let me forewarn you... you WILL cry, sob, pour out your heart to Jesus for this family, and when you are done, you will love on your children like never before. The first day I read it, my heart was so heavy and burden for this family, that I could do was get on my face before God and cry out to him for their pain, their sorrow, their loss.

I love to read the words that Angie writes...she is transparent with strangers. I have never laid eyes on her, but I feel like I know her soul. Recently, a former singer of Selah, Nicol Sponberg's 2 month old baby boy died from SIDS...not even 6 months from when Audrey Caroline died, and now this precious family is mourning the loss of another precious baby. On Angie's blog posted on June 25th, she has a video of Nicol (holding baby Luke) singing a song at Audrey's burial. I just can't imagine the feeling of not getting to hold my baby anymore, of the emptiness you must feel when your baby is not there to hold.

My prayer is that there NEVER goes a day that I don't make sure I love on my children, spend time with them, and truly thank God for giving me one more day to be their mommy.

May God Bless ALL the mommies in this world...hold on to your children...

Friday, June 6, 2008

A Prayer for My Husband

Dear Most Gracious and Heavenly Father,

With my lips I sing your praise. You have given me more than I deserve. Tonight I want to thank you for my husband. You have given me a man of God who loves you and longs to serve you. He loves me with a love that is indescribable. He makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. You have given me a man who was made to be a father. Thank you for using godly men in Ed's life to show him how to be a better father. Thank you for how you are changing Ed to be the kind of husband you have created him to be. Thank you that my husband is the head of our house, and the spiritual leader of our family. Thank you for helping him to get to this point in his degree plan. I have faith, believing that he will complete this course in August. You deserve all the glory for bringing Ed to this place in his education. As we look at the next chapter of our lives, we anxiously wait to see what you have in store for us. You are so good to me.

In Jesus' name,